We often find ourselves standing on a precipice overlooking all of the things that present us with potential happiness and all of the things that present us with potential vulnerability coated in fear. More often than not the things that manifest under both of these rooted trees are the same.
Why is it that we allow our beings to become so fixated on fear’s apprehension that we easily forget the light of gratitude? In an instant we become flooded with excitement when a piece of happiness brings additional feelings of joy and new smiles. In just a few precious moments we convince our beings of all the potential badness and darkened shadows that could accompany this piece of opened vulnerability, and then without thinking combined with no comprehension and confusion we shut down and shut out. We convince ourselves that this good will not remain a constant and therefore we should just let it go.
It is a scary and overwhelming unlighted cycle. It’s so dangerous to believe the shadows and not have belief in the warmth of light. For some of us, our anxiety grabs on so tightly that it convinces us there is no other alternative, and that any ounce of hope you feel should be turned off. Our vulnerabilities and anxieties are okay. They make us human. It is not always easy to remind ourselves that another shoe is not always waiting to drop. Sometimes, that shoe is looking to be tied so it can walk with you on your journey.
That is when we should stop and look. We should look at ourselves and look at the spaces/places around us. It is not always easy and it can feel so very overwhelming, but there is gratitude in those spaces/places. Sometimes it feels like we are walking a very tight rope that will give at any moment. There are things – people – experiences that we have forgotten. These are the things that we were and can be grateful for again. Sometimes it’s easier to hide ourselves, but sometimes we need to be reminded that there are people waiting for us (when we are ready) to come to the table. Think of them and allow them into your cracked crevices. Remind yourself that everything has cracks, and that this is how the light of gratitude can get in. Our cracks make us vulnerable, but they also provide an entrance point for light and warmth.
“Some people grumble that roses have thorns; I am grateful that thorns have roses.”